This week has been a good and bad week. At the beginning of the week I was still struggling with my running. I talked about it in my last post and have deduced it is the time of the year. I have been feeling like my times have not been improving even though I have been training a fair amount. You wouldn’t believe I ran a marathon 4/5 months ago when I struggle with 5k at times now.
I cried a bit this week because I was convinced I was going nowhere and just felt deflated. I am always quite hard on myself my husband tells me and this week was no exception. I just felt I was trying hard but yet going for a run felt so difficult. Then it hit me yet again – it’s SUMMER!
Every year here in Queensland I struggle. I just forget! The humidity and the heat kicks in and it often feels like you’re running in treacle and going nowhere. Take the ParkRun I did a couple of weeks ago with my friend where I had to walk as it was too hot.
As mentioned in my last blog post when I was back home on my trip to the UK I did a Parkrun there and loved it because I was much more accustomed to the 11 degrees over the 30 degrees here!
My husband told me to stop punishing myself. So I decided to run a ParkRun this weekend again with my friend. Much to my delight it was a much cooler day, in fact it was raining. I wasn’t sure whether to run as I am not a huge advocate of running whilst it is raining in case of injury or illness but I went.
By the time I turned up it was just spitting rain so perfect running conditions.
I didn’t really push it as much as I could have. I just thought I’d try and run reasonably comfortably and enjoy the run. It got a bit difficult about 4k in but I pushed on and when I crossed the finish line the girl timing said I was the first female over the line! My time was quite slow compared to a lot of the girls that normally run (and there were only 118 competitors ) at just over 26 mins but it was the boost I needed. I also came first in my age category :-)
For the rest of the day I felt a definite spring in my step and I felt renewed in my running efforts. I know I will never be a ‘quick’ runner but doing my best and believing in myself is what I need to do more rather than looking around at other people’s times and comparisons to me.
We all need to give ourselves a break sometimes. We put so much pressure on doing things we enjoy often to the point it doesn’t become fun anymore – sometimes we need those slower runs and not so great runs to appreciate the good runs and to see how far we have come :-D
Forget the time
I’ve also decided to make a conscious effort to try and not concentrate on times. It’s hard as a lot of runners tend to focus on time as to how well they are doing. Of course it’s a great indicator but us amateur runners that have faced lots of challenges and times when we have been unable to run I figure now the fact that I can run right now is a complete bonus and who gives a toss about the time!
Anyway that’s my ramble over for this post but I just wanted to share my topsy turvy week and encourage anyone else out there that is feeling not so great to keep running and appreciating that you can.