I feel like my journey with running consists of my going through an endless cycle of :
loving it > struggling with it > picking myself back up and getting back into it > loving it ….and so on.
There is often a sickness and an injury thrown in as an added spoke on the wheel but that’s pretty much what I go through.
I was wondering what to write in my post and I decided I’d just write about how things had been going. The last two weeks have been a bit of a struggle with my running – so I guess I was at the ‘struggling with it stage of my cycle’.
Resembling Marvin from Hitch Hikers Guide to the Galaxy
After running the weekend before I struggled all week last week to motivate myself to go out and run. I don’t know if I was coming down with something but my legs felt heavy, my head felt like it was going to topple off my neck and I generally just felt a little under par. My poor husband had to sit and watch me mope around the house and generally resemble Marvin from The Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy.
All I could think of was negativity in relation to my running
‘you’re not running fast enough Zoe’, ‘you’re going to struggle with your half marathon’, ‘have a nice lie in and don’t bother about running’
and so I gave into it for the week.
I got to Thursday last week and decided enough was enough. I skipped my usual training session with the guys at Intraining last Thursday night and I went out for a trot by myself. I ended up running a great 5k – it’s funny how even when you don’t want to run – when you finally get out there you feel so much better. So lesson to myself is to make myself just go even if I don’t feel like it as I always feel better afterwards!
I am still not feeling 100% but feeling better in myself. I need to take my own advice having given some advice on my blog before on how to stay motivated! One of the comments I made in that previous post was to go shopping and plan a treat at a certain point – well I have my new Garmin Forerunner 235 from RunStopShop and SKINS sent me some awesome Dnamic tights to try out – so I guess that should be my motivation!
Don’t get bogged down with pressure
I find sometimes it is so easy to feel that my running needs to be improving and that there is a pressure to keep up with people around me and to be competitive. I’m working on that and trying to distance myself from people who make me feel that way.
The group I run with on a Thursday are really friendly and supportive of everyone whether you are the fastest or the slowest, and on runs on the weekend with my friends we go at the slowest persons pace as it’s not always about zooming off. In the past I was often the one left at the back not sure where I was going and feeling like a failure.
At the moment I feel in some ways that maybe I shouldn’t have entered the half marathon I plan to do in March – but I know if I don’t have goals to work towards then it is very easy to skip training altogether.
Long run on Saturday
I don’t have too much of a choice at the moment but to push up the training at the weekend as it isn’t long until the Half Marathon now. I don’t feel ready for it having had a rough start to the year with my injury but I will see it as a training run and another free top to add to my collection I think. I ran 17k last weekend for my long run – so this weekend will be probably 18/19k.
Anyway onwards and upwards. I’m looking forward to my long run at the weekend and my session with the Intraining team tonight :-)- have a great week/weekend running and I will write more soon 😀